I sit here a month before my ten year high school graduation anniversary! I remember 5 years ago and I was working a low end retail job, had just failed out of college, so my track and field and football dreams were done for, and I’m pretty sure I didn’t even have a car at the time.
A lot has changed in the last 5 years let alone the last 10! I remember 2012 was a tough year… I didn’t get into the Baltimore City police academy due to bad decisions in college and that really crushed me because being a cop and going on to the FBI had been my dream since I was a boy. I had not a damn idea what I was going to do. I was apart of a new faith, and finding my spirituality again, I was trying to figure out who Gerald was!
I realized the reason I was feeling so down was because I was holding onto things that didn’t matter as much as I thought they did. Something I’ve learned is that sometimes you gotta start over to succeed. 5 years later as I turn the light off in my house, I can testify of that. Shortly after that rejection from BPD, I got into computers. Never in my life did I think I would ever get into the I.T. world but here I am. I got a job with Verizon that opened doors for me. To be honest outside of the stress it’s a really good job, and I’m grateful for the opportunity. In the last 5 years I built a relationship with the love of my life, and now we build a home together as we plan our wedding. My brothers from other mothers and I started this LitTube thing for kicks and now it’s taken on a life of its own!
Outside of that mini brag session I guess what I’m trying to say is that no matter the time period you’ve blocked off to measure your success, it shouldn’t be an end point. If I had given up at 5 years from graduation I wouldn’t be here living my dreams. I’ve lost a few along the way, and even gained an angel in the process, but it’s only motivated me to continue.
When it comes to LitTube, and this brand we are building, it’s more than a hobby for me. My writing is more than a hobby, it’s something I spend hours a day during troubleshooting calls thinking about. Drawing up t shirt designs, and character sketches for films and books to be written! I wouldn’t be able to do it without my Fiancé, my family, and my brothers. When i lost my grandma last summer I fell into a dark place, but now I’m seeing there was a light, because it was her love that pushed me through, and the want to honor her memory that allowed time the strength to keep going!
As I look back on the last ten years, I could’ve done better probably… I could’ve skipped a few parties, or paid more attention in class… but I’m here, and I’m where I’m supposed to be. I’m me… and that’s all I will be!
Journey Not Over…